||[Aug. 9th, 2011|05:02 am]
Where do I start?|
I've found it quite hard to connect with people, in case they leave me. Especially the children. I want to be a good parent, but... no, it's not about my mother.
As I was saying, being parental is quite difficult for me because of that sense of inevitable loss. It makes it hard to enjoy the days as they happen.
No, my mother never did that.
Anyway, it's really important that I get over this somehow. And not just the children, I chase everyone off. I even made Amy leave and I love her like... like cake loves those little silver ball bearings, you know the ones?
Yeah, those. Amy is those, and I am a cake, and I'm not complete without her. And then there's River, who...
No, neither of them looks anything like my mother.
River's all sexy and dynamic and I quite want to have a proper relationship, like Amy has with Rory. Those are her parents, but that's neither here nor there.
Really, it is not about my mother.
Oh, piss off, Sigmund. I'm going down the pub.